One Step Closer to Miles Away

I remember when I still didn't get the job for almost one year. It felt like I'm kind of scum of the earth. I just go everywhere to attend an interview, but never called again for a follow up. And there was a time where I must go to north Jakarta, to attend an interview with one of the multinational airlines in Soekarno-Hatta airport. The night before the interview, I was thinking not to come to the interview because it was so far away from my home, and I have to take an airport transportation to go there, which was pretty expensive for just a bus. But in the other hand I already feel the excitement because I never been to airport by myself and I thought it would be a great experience. Which was indeed I had a great experience (you can check my experience in my other post : "pungutan liar resmi")

I pretend like I'm one of the busy people who want to go abroad or something. I walked terminal to terminal, see people with their suitcase, their family and friends. And the most unforgettable moment is when I see and hear planes takeoff and landing. The engine sound. Suddenly I felt so carried away with emotion I could almost cried and in the meantime I felt like I can also be in that plane. And I said to myself  "don't worry mom, I will make you proud. I will be in that plane someday. I will go to other country and study there. No one will ever underestimate our family anymore."

And now I'm one step closer to miles away. Everyday, I am one step closer to my dreams.

The Saddest Song Ends

Imagine when you're on your way home and find that you neighborhood are no longer exist
giant fire are burning every woods and houses
birds flies in a cloud of smoke but couldn't find their nests
human bodies are like the streets color - burning black and break
you wish to find your family member or friends
but they're all the same
you just stand your ground and stare a mile
because everything is burnt down to the ground
and something above is playing the saddest instrument
you keep staring until your strong hand is losing a grab
and your cute kitty doll for your 2 years old beautiful daughter falls into a burning stone
a lovely rose to your lovely lover hurt your hand to bleed
you just want to say that you love your mother more than anything in this world
but where is your mother?
where is your mother?
there's only a sound of fire
and then a big wave wash away all of a sudden
you lost everything
you're alone
the saddest song ends